New Updates

Hello everyone per the last post Ive guessed you seen that I'm on here and will be more often , I wanna start back doing music Monday's but more of songs that have helped thru my darkest of times and song that just make me happy every time I hear that or that one song I can never listen to again because all I could thing about is my  ex , Yeah that song I think we all have one of those .So this will be more about everyday things and what goes, I feel as if I cant do this with my friends sad because nobody really truly gets me but one voice and one person is all you need to make you feel alright.

New Beginnings

Hello my fellow bloggers i haven't blogged in two years and now I think its time I start  back .Lately I've been going  thru this rough patch of life .And its crazy because I'm only 21 and I should be having my head stuck down a vodka bottle and going on endless shopping sprees  but instead I spend nights tossing and turning because I feel like I'm running out of time .We live in a world were everything is fast paced , we can get food within 30 minutes , you can kiss a celebrity at 11:30pm at the club and  you already have 15,00 extra followers by the time the internet finds out at 11:45. Day in an day out I sit here and plan out my future everyday like its my meal plan because I'm so scared for things to go off the rails .I should be having more fun and going bout but I'm constantly planning out my future ,maybe because when I bring a child in the world I wanna be prepared but you can only be prepared for so many things ,But here to just figuring that shit out , its like one minute I'm okay with everything and the next im just stressing out cause i want m debt to be payed off in  a few months ,but here's to just taking a step at a time .

My YouTube channel

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiv9_aLXX2hdrLFEdLk310Q

sneak Peak

So hey guys little do you know ive been trying to push my singing career since it has been a dream of mine i never really like thought I would do this but I am .

New Youtube Channel

Hey everyone so I have made the very scary decision to share my my voice and let others judge it ,so every Friday on my Youtube channel I will be posting Youtube videos of cover of songs and some will be me just fooling around ,so just let me know what you think guys

https://youtu.be/Mip1egD9_k8 here the one I posted today so let me know

Acceptance

 This word right here is going to mean so much ,no matter what stage in your life you are going through .Acceptance is one of the last steps you go through when your grieving, afte the anger and denial and the blaming and slef blaming youbfinally accept the situation for what it is .

Who we are and who we wanna be ?

       Remember when we were kids and people asked us what we wanted to be .When I was in the 5th grade and this exact question was asked ,the answers that went around the table were "doctor, police officer, nurse" .And when my turn came up I said "oh a playboy bunny". Everybody looked at me and then started cracking up laughing ,I mean I really didn't have a answer and considering I watched (Girls Next Door) the answer was bound to come out eventually. I guess then I really wasn't concerned about a career I was just making sure I didn't miss Hannah Montana and was up to date on all things Jonas Brothers. But all jokes aside ,why at a young age do we have to choose who we want to be ,I feel constantly that a ticking clock having to pick something. What if I go to school for a career and then don't like it and then I'm stuck, you see what I'm saying .Then people criticize you if you don't go to college and want to do something completely different I'm gonna say this and say it over and over again ,fuck what people say do what makes you happy because at the end of the day ,its about you looking back 20 and 30 years from wondering if you should have did this and that. If u wanna be a magician do it ,you could be the next Houdini or David Blane .Girls if you love science and math don't let no man discourage you from not do so ,Because last time I checked us women are successful in everything we do.